You know, I was thinking...

I have always had very low self esteem, triggered by the fact that I was always teased, and made fun of growing up... I think that someone so intelligent, and powerful and sexy like Hawk showing interest in me was an ego boost... but being treated like he treats me is not... I wonder if he saw my weak self esteem and played on it... he is one to love playing with people's heads, just because he can get away with it without most people even knowing it... hmmm... one more reason to get out now...